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Follow Your North Star


I went quiet for a while. I'm not sure why but the words didn't come. The topics didn't even come. I guess there comes a time when the words, well they don’t disappear…they just stop volunteering.

The cursor blinks.The notebook stays closed.The ideas that once flowed now sit quietly in the corner like, “We’re not ready yet.”


For a while, I told myself I was procrastinating. Then I told myself I was blocked because that sounds so "romantic". Then I decided it was because it was winter and I hate winter. Then—if I’m being honest—I worried that maybe I was done. I had nothing more to say.


But that wasn’t it. I wasn’t done. I was processing. It's hard to let the words flow when you need your mind to be quiet.


When you don’t want to process out loud, sometimes the bravest thing you can do is go quiet.

Not because you have nothing to say—but because what you’re learning needs privacy.


A Buddhist teaching reminds us that the lotus doesn’t bloom by force. It grows in the dark, underwater, long before anyone sees it.


I was really worried about this for a while but then I thought about what I learned in one of my yoga classes. And what I learned in my Life Coaching classes. SURRENDER


I used to think surrender meant:

  • Losing momentum

  • Letting people down

  • Falling behind

  • Failing at consistency (the biggest sin of the internet)


But surrender showed up differently.


That little voice inside my head said: “You don’t need to write anything right now. Silence is not quitting.”


I didn't have to force myself to write when I just wasn't feeling it. Apparently my soul needed some nourishing. I wasn't giving my all at work and I don't feel like I was giving my all at home, which included taking care of myself.

While I wasn’t writing, I was:

  • Listening

  • Feeling

  • Questioning

  • Unlearning

  • Letting go of old narratives that no longer fit


I need to remember that my body always knows what to do. And I need to listen to it. Follow my north star.


Now it's time to write again. I don't know what I'm going to write about but the words seem to be flowing again. Maybe travel, maybe work, maybe some really inspiring stories...

Who Knows!


So my piece of advice for today is "Don't be afraid to slow down, go quiet, and surrender." You won't lose your voice.


Much love to all 🤍




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