Personal Growth

Personal Growth

I watched a movie this weekend about the life of Mahatma Gandhi. I've heard many quotes from him throughout the years but I never really understood the extent of his impact. I was fascinated by the movie and wanted to learn more. So, I did what everyone would do and I fired up Mr. Google and did some more research on his life and his beliefs. I was humbled. Everything he did and all he endured was for the good of the people.

I thought about his goodness and then I looked inward at myself and thought about my goodness. I feel like I'm a pretty good person. I try to be humble, I try to help others. But the question came to mind "Have I truly been doing it for others or have I been doing it because I am a people pleaser?" I have always been a people pleaser. Lately, I've been trying to ask myself why I am doing some of the things I do. I still want to be a good person, I just want to set boundaries so I can be the best person for me. That made me get to thinking and of course, I got sidetracked and started doing research on growth. Personal growth.

Over the past year, I've felt like something has been shifting within me. I talked to Jim about it but I honestly can't pinpoint what this shift is. Or what it means. It feels spiritual in nature but I can't be more specific than that. I've been thinking a lot about how I can be a better version of myself. I want to understand life. I want to know how to know myself better. I want to help others. So many things!

A couple months ago, I checked out certifications on being a life coach. I think it would be a good fit for me but I also think I have to "put the mask on myself before I try to help others" (as the airlines always tell us). How do I find the balance between helping others and helping myself. I truly care about other people but where do I set boundaries. I've been a people pleaser my entire life so it's hard to know.

This summer we went to Morocco. I learned so much about Muslims. And although I do not follow the Islam religion, hearing the Calls to Prayer was a very emotional experience. It was all so beautiful. The country, the people and even the food! It all had an effect on me.

When I got back I started thinking about starting my yoga practice again. I haven't been for a quite a few months. A couple weeks ago, I received notification that my yoga studio has a new owner, Joy Stone. I really liked the previous owner and was sad to see her go but the sense of community was the reason I loved the place so much. I felt an even bigger pull to go back. I reached out to a friend (one of the yoga instructors at the studio) and asked what she thought about the new owner. Robbi assured me I would love her. And I do.

Joy is not just a yoga instructor, she teaches yoga philosophy. I attended a yoga psychology workshop she held and I know this is the beginning of my shift. Or maybe Africa was. Whatever the case, I believe Joy was put into my life at a time I was ready to start a journey of higher spirituality and understanding.

I guess things fall into place when they are meant to. Can't wait to see where this journey takes me!

Love to all,

Ruthie